Baby Steps

Got to take baby steps to get where we want to go.  Baby steps include getting help.  Last night, was a HUGE step for me... I actually sat down and admitted that not only I, but Monster needed help. Needed someone to talk to. So I have enlisted in the help of a play therapist. Last night was the "parent meeting". Since my mom is currently acting as Monster's other parent, she went with me. We discussed different things happening with our dynamic, why we think things are happening, and what has happened in the past for this to get this way.  Hopefully this will be the best thing for us. I know I am a little nervous, but very excited about this.

Since November, I can count on one hand that Monster has slept in his room, all night long.  Since November, I can count on one hand how many times, he wasn't upset about me leaving him anywhere but daycare (he cried and got upset last night when I went outside with out him). Since November he has stated to me "Jesus is my father, he's my dad, my other dad disappeared".

Over Christmas, Monster went to his auntie's with my mom for the night without me.  When I got there the next day, he ran to me and said "MOMMY YOU CAME BACK!!!" and acted surprised that I was there. This breaks my heart.  My poor baby thinks that since his dad up and left, it means I am going to too.

Any of you have any ideas on how I can get him to sleep in his room?!?! haha.