Fighting for what?

After fighting with my still-but-almost-ex-husband on my way to work this morning, i came in to see this in my email.  

 

Speak to me God. Speak to me. I just have to trust in you. Start focusing on building the new. 

Monster has a ear infection, inter-ear and ear canal. Plus a nasty cold. Poor baby was NOT feeling good at all this weekend. Friday night the fire alarm went off and he screamed.  Saturday he woke up early (didn't go to bed til midnight, and was up at 645) He was fine, playing with his cousins, doing the garage sale, getting into things. All of the sudden he started screaming that his ear hurt.  He's had a number of ear infections in the past, resulting in 2 sets of ear tubes, adenoids taking out, but he's still getting them... we called Dr. On Demand (which is great, for the most part) got meds for him, i put some OTC ear drops in there and gave him some pain meds.  Around 5 pm, his ear was draining so extremely badly, and he was still screaming in pain, i decided to take him to the urgent care to get it checked out.  Yup, worse infection than i thought. 2 oral scripts, plus special ear drops. Looks like we'll be trying to get into another ENT. Thank God for insurance. But this is what i was fighting with his dad about. Child Support. Medical bills, etc. I've got to let it go. I don't make a whole lot of money, pay between 800-900 a month in daycare expenses, my car, health insurance for both of us, and my car insurance (plus random bills that were put in my name when we were married... that I'm now stuck with...) Luckily, i have my mom. While he's living on off his girlfriend. he doesn't have a car payment, because hey, that is in my name and he left in Oklahoma when he abandoned ship! He has his cell phone bill, that's all he HAS to pay for.  He has been there for two months, and just started looking for a job. (he's been out of work for most of the last year...) But apparently i have no reason or right to be upset.  

But like the quote says, "focus all of your energy, not on the fighting the old" He's never going to change, I have to accept that. Move on. Vent and let it go! "...But on building the new" Monster deserves that. 

On a side note, no church for us tonight. But Grandma has a date. Yay for her!